Speak your truth. I hear this mantra a lot. A lovely thought.
In August I had a reiki session done. One was all it took. We were trying to find the source of my multi-week headache episodes. For twenty plus years, my jaw had been askew. As soon as she put her hand near my jaw, thoughts and images came rushing through. Phlegm released from my lymph nodes, I could not speak. That was the problem. I do not speak.
I had to work through telling my body I was sorry I didn’t fight harder against abuse with my first relationship, that I don’t speak up for myself, and as all that was released, so did my jaw. It is completely straight now and I haven’t had those types of headaches since.
Still, my lymph nodes in the back of my throat remain swollen. I type things on social media than erase them. Delete shared posts. Don’t speak. I don’t want to cause harm or sadness or anger to anyone. I don’t want to rock the boat. Yet, all these truths remain hidden.
What do they mean by speak your truth? What truth? Everyone seems to be drawn to tell me how they feel about Trump. Yet I stay mute. I’d love to tell them that I support Trump and I can see through all the ridiculous headlines and have done my research. But, I stay mute.
Always fearful of affecting my business or friendships, I do not speak.
A customer and past student were in my shop this week. I know they are pretty devote Christians, which I respect. Maryjane brought out the tarot cards and wanted a reading right then! I gasped and took them and threw them in my purse. “She has her own tarot cards?” the woman exclaimed. I did not speak. Why did I hide them? I use them in my work. They are an invaluable resource in my intuition and healing practices. I am not ashamed, just worried about what people think.
What is the line? When do you speak your truth? I know the swelling in my throat chakra is because I have stayed mute too long. It is imperative I change that. So I am a Libertarian Green Witch. Those close to me probably already know that and don’t care.
What do you think “Speaking Your Truth” means?